Entrepreneurship Is Hard

I guess that it shouldn't be a surprise but being an entrepreneur is hard. 

Me and Neguse - one of my favorite photos and a reminder of why we are doing what we are doing!

I am feeling inadequate. There, I said it. There is so much to do and I don't know how to do it. It's been three months since I left my job, I know it's pretty unrealistic but I thought we'd be 'further'. I thought we'd have a 'deal'.  I figured our hot sauce would be in a few retail stores and the money would be flowing in fast and out to our charities faster. Guess what? You are smart - I think I've met almost everyone that is reading this so I can say that - you know it hasn't. 

To be honest, I knew that it would be a long, rough road. Knowing it doesn't change the feeling of inadequacy though. Surprisingly it's not the 'big' things that are causing me to doubt - our mission and vision are just and sound and our product is awesome. It's all of the little things, the small failures, the closed doors, the 'food business' in general that is causing me to pause and take stock. 

I may have been going about it all wrong for the last few months. I've been trying to direct, to control, to dictate. I forget in many small ways the reason why we are doing what we do. It's time to take a breather, to refocus, to put God first again and let Him guide. It's time to practice a little gnosis. It's time to let go and let God. It's time to empty the box with all the things I want and allow it to be filled with what God wants. Say a prayer for me, would you? It's easy to write but much harder to do!

To be clear, this doesn't mean that I will be working 'less' or not as hard. I think it will mean quite the opposite. It means running the good race, fighting through the obstacles (or at least seeing them as detours and not barricades). 

Writing this has been good, cathartic. I feel strangely energized and excited for the journey. 

Peace friends,


Don't forget to come to the Collyde Summit this Friday & Saturday (Sept 19 & 20). I'll be speaking about World Vision Micro and my journey on Friday evening before the Jeremy Camp concert. Check out our Events page as well for all of our appearances. We would LOVE to see and meet you.

Come down to the river
Come let yourself in
Make good on a promise 
To never hurt again. 
If you're lost and lonely
Broken down
Bring all of your troubles
Come lay 'me down.
Bear & Bo Rinehart
Need to Breathe

"Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your heart on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God." Colossians 3:1